BACK TO ZERO?

Such a stupid girl.... i went home to my moms place last week coz my niece is graduating from prep-school, i dont wanna miss that part of life of my fave niece... well anyways, of all the kids, my niece's classmate is my ex's niece also...




And there's the rush again...





Though id shoot him an SMS and just say "hey,ur niece and my niece are classmates,isnt that fun?and hell,they are friends...great!!"... I struggled with it for quite awhile, but i had a relapse!!! I AM A LOSER!!!!! i reall cant belive that i did sent him an SMS, so he asks if i could go online coz he wants to ask my opinion about the car he's plannning to buy, he said im the only he thinks who could give him a reliable answer coz i have good taste for cars...So, I did...we did talked about cars, about just anything and he let me hear a song about two lovers drifting apart and having their own lives but still feel the connection...arrghhh, well obviously, he wants to tell me what he feels through that song...






And as soon as our conversation ended, I FELT LIKE IM SUCH A LOSER!!!! feels like im back to zero....

And on that day, i decided to go back to the city and just move on...

But i felt like i cheated my self...





Darn, its really hard to resist him...

WORDS ARE NOT ENOUGH

I've been pondering on a lot of things these past few days.. Im so glad there are people,who may not know me personally, who gives advises and supports me... You guys know who you are, I dont know how to thank you..

Blogging is the greatest tool i have at this point of time, to slowly get over him. I have posted a discussion on the coffee shop entitled "HOW TO GET OVER", at first, i didnt thought that it would help me,but guess what, i had a transformation. Little by little, i am coming to the realization of totally getting over him and how stupid i am for still seeing him. So far, in my 23 years of living on this planet called earth, this is the greatest challenge i ever had.. And im so proud to say, that im stronger than ever.

It took me quite awhile to recover from these, but everyone have the chance to change, we may not be able to correct what happened in the past, but we learn not to make the same mistake. And i really hope that i could surpass this. I cant promise anything for now, but il do my best to resist him.

One more person who helped me get through this is my dear friend/roommate/officemate, who was there for me all this time. Well,she actually dont know about this blog,hehehe.... She was really nice to me.. One of the best friend i ever had. Cant thank her enough. She makes me look forward in everyday of my life..At this time, she's the best thing that ever happened in my life...

And oh,the guy that im dating now, i finally broken up with him,cant fool my self and i also dont want to fool him and hurt him.

HAPPIER

I think im getting over him...little by little with the help of my friend,actually she is the best friend i have these days...She cheers me up,makes me happy, makes me look forward ito the coming days...i really love this girl... cant thank her enough for helping me out with the messes of my life...

BEACH

weekend...and wanna take the day off out of work and just relax...enjoy the beach..sun...and just relax....

is off in about 3hrs to go one the beach resorts near the city...

cant wait...so excited..

STALKER

darn,im checkin out right now his wife's profile on facebook...Cant belive his wife invited me to add as her friend on facebook....


And im kinda upset seeing them together...urrggghhhh....but i have to move on....

RANDOM THOUGHTS

while reading,making comments and making discussions on The Coffee Shop, i came to think of how people,like us,could get time to do blogs...

Do we do it coz we're bored?
or just to kill time?

Do we do it coz we're all frustrated writers?(but isnt really qualified to be one..LOL)

Do we do it coz its our way of expressing our self in writing?



We may have different reasons why we do this..But no matter how diverse our reasons our for doing blogs, whats important is we could have an output where we could pour out our frustrations,ideas,feelings..etc...

We each come up with ideas,it may not be an acceptable to ones opinion and we may not agree to each ones opinion,but hearing out ones opinion helps you as individual and makes u realize that no man is an island.

VENTS

After shopping with my friend/flatmate, on our way home earlier this day while on a cab, I suddenly felt that my life is going nowhere.. Though I enjoy my life right now..can go wherever i want, can do whatever i think of doing....i just dont know what is missing in my life right now...Im trying to get over with my first love,but i know he has nothing to do with this right now.. And my job,damn, i kind of like it but i think i need a break...its really so hard to take a vacation and off for work here...

crap!!!

DUNNO!!!!

wanna get away,far far away......

AMF!!!!!

RANDOM THOUGHTS

wanna go back to our province so i could spend some time and catch up with old friends...i love hte feeling of going back to ur old life where everything seems to go well...u could do everything, spend ur time with nothing... be a happy lucky person...i guess im just tired with my life right now... i need a new job...new life.... new love life i guess... Well, isa lng nmn puno't dulo neto eh...si Felix.. hahahaha... papangalanan na...well neweiys he wont know anything about this blog....

SERIES

so addicted with THE OC series...
nvr thought id like that old series...hehehehe...

POURING MY HEART OUT vol.1

i feel like i've been wasting my time waiting for him, the fact that i am fully aware that whatever i do, whenever i go, how hard i pray...We will never be together again.. I had the chance to be with him for the last time,though i know its wrong,and that chance made me realize that after all these years, im still not over him. Im really so 2006!!!...I dont want to...but its hard...so EFFIN hard...

God knows how I've been praying to get over him...
How i'd wish I could be with someone and totally not think that he was him...